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Wednesday, April 28, 2004

what if. the person is. you? haha. *giggles

ha. you people must be wondering wth is up with that. well. i dunno. see. there are things. not many know. and i don't think. i would want them to know. like i ALWAYS say.. somethings are better left unsaid! xP

hmmm. dang. now pinky pig. aka my XIAO DI knows about him. uh ohs. =x hahas. ehh. feel so sad le. he never tell me about IT! not sure if i'm supposed to say it.. so i shall just leave the thing as IT. but then. i never tell him anything also. =x harhar.

sighs. on a more serious note. i. totally. don't. know. what. to. do. cans. sigh. i feel like. just. giving up. but then. part of me doesn't want to. i so don't know what i want. its too risky. its just like. if i were to let HIM know. there would be consequences. would he still wanna know? it wouldn't help things right. worse off case would be.. he goes like. "huh. you like me? dont joke le." dots. okay. i know i do that to people. =| now i know what people mean by having to have a taste of ur own medicine. =|| ha.. sigh. i don't know.. i don't wanna have to have another case of TOOSERIOUSTOOSOON.. or.. IDONTHAVETHEHEART. things like that. know what i mean? the cons seems so much more than the pros. what if. what if. aiyaaa. i could just come up with a thousand what ifs. sighs. i'll just see how it goes.

ha. the rest are extractions from memoirs- .. people who read it MIGHT find it familiar. it speaks alot of how i feel right now. =)) tkc. must sleep le.

i'm lost.. within a maze.. the maze.. i can never overcome.. the maze.. of my heart..

the heart has reasons one cannot understand..

Le coeur a ses raisons .. Que la raison ne connait point ..

once i was lost.. and then i was found.. standing and looking down from six feet.. if i fall.. would anyone catch me?

what would happen if i were to know and u were to know and we both know but yet we don't wanna know?

i'm falling outta reach.. defying gravity.

" No man is an island. What happens to one, happens to us all, for we are all made of clay and stardust. We share the same moments of time. . . ."

memories play like a film without sound.. silence is loud when all you hear is your heart.. love is a bitter sweet torment to some and torment to most. the more you probe the deeper the knife cuts. lost to time.. and time alone.

assure me its ok to use my heart and not my eyes . . to navigate the darkness . . will the ending be ever coming suddenly . . ? will i ever get to see the ending of my story . . ? so when and how will i know . . ? how much further do i have to go . . ? how much longer until i finallly know . . ?

you're like the sun that brightens up the darkest skies.. the only one i can see when i close my eyes..

should i be falling for him?. correction. i already FELL for him. and it sucks when these feelings are kinda strong. i'm NOT supposed to fall for him. so why the hell did I?! blahs. fed up with myself.. sigh. don't. think. he'll. ever. like. me. thou..

I think I'd better leave right now
Before I fall any deeper
I think I'd better leave right now
Feeling weaker and weaker
Somebody better show me how
Before I fall any deeper
I think I'd better leave right now..

contradictingly.. this song speaks of how i feel TOO.

it's coming over you
like its coming over me
crashing like a tidal wave
that drags me out to sea
and I wanna be with you
if you wanna be with me
crashing like a tidal wave
and i don't wanna be
stranded, stranded, stranded, stranded...

and last but not least. i think this song speaks the BEST. =)

"How Did I Fall In Love With You?"

Remember when, we never needed each other
The best of friends like
Sister and Brother
We understood, we'd never be,
Alone

Those days are gone, now I want you so much
The night is long and I need your touch
Don't know what to say
I never meant to feel this way
Don't want to be
Alone tonight

[chorus:]
What can I do, to make you mine
Falling so hard so fast this time
What did I say, what did you do?
How did I fall in love with you?

I hear your voice
And I start to tremble
Brings back the child that, I resemble

~~I cannot pretend, that we can still be friends~~
Don't want to be,
Alone tonight

[chorus:]
What can I do, to make you mine
Falling so hard so fast this time
What did I say, what did you do?
How did I fall in love with you?

[Bridge:]
Oh I want to say this right
And it has to be tonight
Just need you to know, oh yeah

I don't want to live this life
I don't want to say goodbye
With you I wanna spend
The rest of my life

[chorus:]
What can I do, to make you mine
Falling so hard so fast this time
What did I say, what did you do?
How did I fall in love with you?

What can I do, to make you mine
Falling so hard so fast this time
Everything's changed, we never knew

How did I fall,
in love ,
with you?

know what's the only difference? i'm able to pretend. that we can still be friends. not cause i have to. but cause i wanna. cause this friendship means the world to me. i've already almost lost it not too long back. don't wanna risk losing it once more. no matter what happens. its a promise i make to myself. =)

sometimes i think he knows i like him. =|| does he!? hur. sighhhhhhhhh.

i close my eyes and dreamt a dream.. a dream which lasted so long... yet whether it would come true.. remains as a question which would be unanswered. =)

;elysium.
3:51:00 AM